One of the hardest thing to do.

Dengan nama Allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang.

...And here you will read my deepest thoughts.

Milo. Nescafe. McDonalds. Sebut those three things mesti korang dah tau what am I gonna say, kan?

Terlintas pasal nih sebab time iftar, fikir la nak buat air ape. Ye la. Kalo beli air, RM2x29=RM58. Huhu. Dah dekat RM60 kot, air je. So, the best thing to do, bncuh sendiri sebab kat hostel tuh ade water cooler. Water cooler tuh plak memang pihak asrama akan tukar filter every week so, memang confident nak guna.

Time nak beli kordial or 3 in 1, fikir plak what should I buy. Jalan2 kat bahagian minuman segera etc, felt like drinking hot choc drinks. Hmm. Then, there was it. One of my favourite drink of all time. Used to be though. Milo. Asal used to be? Sebab product Nestle. Asal plak dengan product Nestle? 

Hmm...well, actually there are many products that I boycott, for the sake of my brothers and sisters in Palestine. That was seriously one of the hardest thing to do. Sebab I've been drinking Milo, like almost my entire life. And Nescafe and McD pun although I wasn't a Nescafe or McD addict. Used to enjoyed eating those la. The first thing I did after I knew, walaupun this boycott thing has been around like, dah lama, tapi still tak settle, was to stop taking those. It was kinda hard when makan dengan kawan and they all ended up ordering Milo.Gitu gak time orang order McD. Time mula2 dulu la. Telan la jugak air liur tuh. Trying not to look and find the courage not to end up ordering as well. Thinking about those Palestenians yang might be harmed because of one gulp of that drink might cost one bullet. I really don't have any hatred to Jews, Christians or other religions in particular, no offense people (I have many non-Muslims friends from all over the world) tapi those incidents happened in Palestine, really made my heart sank.

I was caught in the middle of a situation when my co-worker wanted to treat everybody in the office.Sebelum tuh the same person treating us out for lunch but I couldn't go so if nak tolak, macam pelik je kan, and dorg order McD. Berfikir sejenak aku nak bagi alasan. I ended up eating Bubur McD! My fault sebab didn't state the obvious. but yeah. I failed. 

Some people might say, "Ko tak makan kat McD ke, ko boikot ke, tak habis2 jugak pergolakan kat sana,". Tu sebab everyone thinks like that. Tak ingat ke iklan Light Off 60 minutes tuh? Its slogan, lebih kurang macam, "I'm only one person,". Tapi kalau setiap individu rasa bertanggungjawab, tak mustahil, kan? The same thing goes to things yang menghina Allah, Nabi Muhammad S.A.W. My friend asked, "If the prophet Muhammad pbuh asks us one day, what did you do when people are insulting me, what will you answer? What have you done to help stopping that kinda wrong acts?". So, tepuk dada, tanya iman (?).

At least, I've done my part. *senyum

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Anak abah

Dengan nama Allah, yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang.

...And here you will read my deepest thoughts.

Anak abah? What's with the title? Hmm, just wanna tell the world that I'm forever my abah's little girl :) Little ke? I miss abah so much. It wasn't that I didn't miss mama, I miss her so much too, but it's just that I haven't talked to abah quite some time. A week, maybe? lol. Manja~! Mama yang the one who always called. She'll tell everything kat abah, so yeah, I think abah's fine with that, as long as he knows I'm alright.

I remember talking to a friend, "When I grow up, I want to marry my dad,".

Didn't everyone used to say that?

Haha. I don't think I'll ever find someone like him..

My abah is one in a million, nah..one in the universe, to be precise. Just like my mama. 

Salah ke kalo nak cari a husband-to-be characteristics macam abah? Maybe kalo sebijik macam abah tuh memang tak la kan. At least a little bit.But honestly, I don't think I'll find one.. My Abah kan one in the universe. 

Air muka abah, slalu nmpak macam garang je. I admit, he's kinda strict, still is but since kitorang dah semakin besar, the strictness tuh dah kurang. Tapi still house rule is one thing that you could never disobey.  Hmm..there was this day that I came home for a break. Biase la kan, bile hencik lappy ade, confirm dok mengadap bende tuh je. Aku la. Orang lain maybe tak..kot.. Nak dijadikan cerita, ntah macam mane ntah, I forgot to set the alarm clock and slept. Subuh lambat dari normal time. Ape lagi, bising la abah. That time after I prayed, abah cakap, "Malam nih, laptop tuh pukul 11 letak kat luar,".

I was like, "What?! Seriously?". Tapi tak de la cakap macam tuh kat abah. Dalam hati je yang memberontak. Technically, I didn't think he expected me to do that but I did. Proud of myself too^^. Susah jugak nak berenggang tapi, just like I said, rule is still a rule.

Strict tak abah saya?

That was one thing. Abah is actually very nice, funny, kind, loving and supportive too. He never really showed that but we did see it.

He was this kind of person:

When I was in a boarding school, I called him asking if abah could do me a favour by bringing me a birthday cake, to make a surprise party to a friend. My school was actually just about 10 minutes away from home. hehe. He didn't really said yes or no but "tengoklah, kalo abah sempat," and hung up the phone. It wasn't just for that particular occasions. There were a lot of many other things like that including buying capacitors for the girls's night, and etc. Trust me, if I wait for him to come, he never disappointed me. He would be there. 

I remember when I had night classes or I took any tuition, he was already there when I came out of class.

He does this still, to my younger brother and sister. Their classes end like at 10.15 p.m and it would only take like 10 minutes untuk smpai ke tmpat tuisyen tuh, but at 9.45p.m, abah dah ready dengan kunci kereta. That's my abah.

He was always there for me, for us :)

There were times on the road, mostly on the way nak balik kampung, we saw like mak cik or pak cik did things macam kait something from pokok yang kami, adik beradik tak tau nama, jual things tepi jalan, we always wondered and usually among ourselves, and sometimes we asked out aloud, "Abah, pak cik tu jual apa?", "Abah, mak cik tuh cari apa?", "Abah, kedai tuh jual apa", "Abah...". Kids and questions...

Try to guess what his answers would be.

He would either reply, "I wasn't the owner of the shop," or slowed down the car, bawak kete rapat je dengan that particular mak cik or pak cik and said, "Should we stop and ask them?"

Dang! I miss him and mama so much.

*why this onion......

"My Lord! Forgive me, and my parents, 

and bestow on them Your Mercy as they did bring me up when I was young."

Anak abah,

Salam Ramadhan

Dengan nama Allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang.

...And here you will read my deepest thoughts.

Hari nih, dah 4 Ramadhan 1433H. I think it's still not too late to wish:

Salam Ramadhan buat seluruh umat Islam di dunia.

Mesti best kan kalo kite dapat something yang bukan sume orang dapat, kan? Camtuh la gak pintu ar-Rayyan nih. Pintu ar-Rayyan nih adalah satu pintu syurga khas untuk orang yang berpuasa. Bukan setakat berpuasa tapi, puasa yang bersungguh-sungguh. Tinggal segala larangan yang perlu ditinggalkan, tingkatkan ibadah dan segala macam yang usaha yang bersungguh-sungguh la bagi mengimarahkan bulan Ramadhan ni. Bukan stakat gi terawih lima hari first je. *Remind kat diri sdiri gak.

So, ape lagi kn? Mehla kite sama2 berpuasa bersungguh-sungguh, berlumba-lumba buat amal ibadat supaya,  insyaAllah, kita terpilih sebagai salah seorang yang masuk melalui ar-Rayyan. 

Hmm..Then, amalan2 yang kita lakukan sepanjang bulan Ramadhan nih, harap-harap la kan bleh dibawa ke bulan-bulan seterusnya. Kalo dulu cam susah je nak bangun malam, bulan puasa nih, rajin sangat2 bangun malam, harap-harap diteruskan la :). Istiqamah beb. Tu penting gak~ So yeah..time's running really fast dear brothers and sisters. Let's use and optimize the time in this Ramadhan, to reap the benefits from it. We never know if we could make it to the next Ramadhan. *senyum

Selamat menyambut Ramadhan al-Mubarak.

Rindu

Dengan nama Allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang.


...And here you will read my deepest thoughts.


Sungguh aku rindu kat kawan-kawan seperjuangan. Aku pun tak tau nape. Semenjak dua menjak nih. 
Tetibe jer ter-flashback balik all those memories. Time kat surau, time perang besar a.k.a rollcall, time gi dewan makan, time hari Jumaat, mintak mak cik kat dewan makan isi nasi himpit dalam bekas sebab malas tak sempat nak gi makan (ade room inspection kot stiap ari Jumaat), time tengok cite kat bilik TV ramai2, time outing ramai2, time mengarut ramai2, time lepak2, time kene marah kat warden asrama, time jadi junior, kne marah dek senior, and all those fancy(?) memories yang ktorang tempuhi. Seyes rindu korang, especially the Bolognese. Those precious people. Hebat oh nme grup. Haha. Anyways. This only reminds me of one thing. Doa Rabitah (sebab ade notes yang tulis: bayangkan rakan2 anda)^^

YA ALLAH,

Engkau mengetahui hati-hati ini,

Telah berkumpul kerana mengasihi-Mu,

Bertemu untuk mematuhi perintah-Mu,

Bersatu memikul beban dakwah-Mu,

Hati-hati ini telah mengikat janji setia untuk mendaulat dan menyokong syariat-Mu,

Maka eratkanlah Ya Allah akan ikatannya,

Maka eratkanlah Ya Allah akan ikatannya,

Maka eratkanlah Ya Allah akan ikatannya,

Kekalkanlah kemesraan antara hati-hati ini,

Akan jalan-Nya yang sebenar,

Penuhkanlah hati ini dengan cahaya Rabbani-Mu,

Yang tidak kunjung malap,

Lapangkanlah hati-hati ini dengan limpahan Iman dan keyakinan,

Dan keindahan tawakkal kepada-Mu,

Hidup suburkanlah hati-hati ini dengan ma'rifat (pengetahuan sebenar) tentang-Mu,

Jika Engkau mentakdirkan mati,

Maka matikanlah pemilik hati-hati ini,

Sebagai para syuhada dalam perjuangan agama-Mu,

Engkaulah sebaik-baik sandaran dan sebaik-baik penolong,

YA ALLAH,

Perkenankanlah permintaan ini.

rindukorangketat2

Cinta kerana Allah :)

Dengan nama Allah yang maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang.

...And here you will read my deepest thoughts.

Sungguh, diri ini xsempurna. Buat kesalahan sama berulang-kali. Kekadang, kaki nih hampir je melencong ke jalan yang xlurus. Alhamdulillah. My fellow sisters always remind me things when I did wrong. Lebih kurang cam, hampir je diri ini yang imannya lagi nipis dari kulit bawang hendak melangkah ke jalan yang x lurus tuh, cepat2, je dorang kejar, pimpin balik ke laluan yang lurus. Mereka lah sahabat2 yang xpenah nak tinggalkan aku saat susah. "Susah, senang bersama-sama," kata dia.

"Kite berkawan, bukan setakat sehari dua, tapi insyaAllah, sampai ke akhirnya~," kata dia.

Ya Allah, sungguh aku syukur kerana dianugerahkan sahabat sebegini.

Alhamdulillah.

Rasulullah S.A.W.  bersabda, “Ada tujuh golongan yang akan dinaungi oleh Allah pada hari ketika tidak ada naungan kecuali naunganNya; [1] seorang pemimpin yang adil, [2] seorang pemuda yang tumbuh dalam [ketaatan] beribadah kepada Allah ta’ala, [3] seorang lelaki yang hatinya bergantung di masjid, [4] dua orang yang saling mencintai kerana Allah; mereka berkumpul dan berpisah keranaNya, [5] seorang lelaki yang diajak oleh seorang perempuan kerkedudukan dan cantik [untuk berzina] akan tetapi dia mengatakan, ‘Sesungguhnya aku takut kepada Allah’, [6] seorang yang bersedekah secara sembunyi-sumbunyi sampai-sampai tangan kirinya tidak tahu apa yang diinfakkan oleh tangan kanannya, dan [7] seorang yang mengingat Allah di kala sendirian sehingga kedua matanya mengalirkan air mata (menangis).” (HR. Bukhari [629] dan Muslim [1031]).

Duhai sahabat, semoga kita tergolong dalam golongan, 'dua orang yang saling mencintai kerana Allah; berkumpul dan berpisah keranaNya'. Walaupun kadang2, hanya melalui skype, rindu tetap terubat^^

Thanks for all the perkongsian. Ukhuwwah fillah abadan abada~^^

Tamat sudah.

Dengan nama Allah yang Maha pemurah lagi maha penyayang.

...And here you will read my deepest thoughts.

Hmm..lps entry psl start euro ari tuh, trus xjalan blog aku. Sebenarnya, ingt  nak update dgn dorg punye result for every match tp ntah cmne, x ter-update. Then. the wrenching part was, my fav team xleh masuk finals. Tersekat kat semi jer. HUhu. They passed group punyer match dgn hebatnye. Ye ar. Menang sume group match kot~ (haha.ayat xleh blah). So, mmg winner of the group la. Siap 9 point lagi..hahah. Then, gi quarter jumpe Greece. Time nih kot menang 4-1. Reus dgn Klose pn score. Oh Yeah! And..England kandas kat quarter. Match against Italy. Aku mmg xkan trash talk team lain. Sebab aku xtgk match tuh, mmg aku xkomen pa per. Xde hak nk komen.

Semi, match dgn Itali. Azzuri, cam bese ar kan , dgn Buffon. Suke cara Buffon jd keeper^^. Haha. The worst part was, die NM kalah kot dgn Italy. 2-1. Mmg xterkata. Ye la. Ade orang ramal menang 2-1 la, 3-1 la, konon kne sekat Pirlo denngan Cassano. well, my hope was, xkire score brape, asl bleh g finals. Seriously. Bahagian defend la kot kurang. Bek Italy, stiap kali Jerman bwk bola, dorang macam tutup je gawang gol tuh. Banyak gak la gol yang terlepas. Then, time kat atas tuh jugak la, Italy bile dpt bola, cepat je pass kat Cassano, then Cassano ke Balotelli. Then Italy dapat 1 gol. Aku mcm dah, "What?! Hummels~~~ ='(" (Typical fan reaction). Tapi terus berharap la kan, sebab ms tuh baru 1st half. Then, 2nd gol plak dari Italy. Lahm sorang je kot jd bek. Sebab yang len naik tadi. Oh that Balotelli. Pfffft. Tapi xckp pa per sbb ms tuh pun br 1st half. The end of 1st half, masuk 2nd half. Poldi gnti ngn Reus, Mario Gomez gnti ngan Klose. Yup. Muller pn xmsuk lg. Lineup, Low masukkan Toni, Poldi. Ramai la gak orang yang komen psl Low punyer percaturan tp aku cam, lek la. sit back and enjoy la. Emo je korang. No offense meant, okay. Huhu. Not bad what Toni. Byk la cubaan jarak jauh, tp straight to Buffon~~. Benci! Haha. Lahm ade gak try shoot, tapi, well, as we all know, bola xmasuk that gawang gol. Smpai la wisel plawanan tamat, aku masih berharap. "They're not gonna make it this time. 10 tahun dh tunggu at least dorang bleh gak 1 piala whether EM or WM, tapi nk buat cne". That 1 goal dari sape? Huhu. from Ozil~! Penalti. haha. Seyes. Lam minit ke 90 kot xsilap aku, sebab ade +4. Then, the rest is history. Aku cam bese ar, emo 2-3 hari sebab nih, tapi bukan aku marah orang ke ape ke, seriously, asl korang x trash talk or something equivalent to that, cam provoke aku,aku okay je. Yang aku xpuas ati, orang nak trash talk aku pny fav team when I didn't do that to them tuh pasai pa?! Bukan stakat trash talk, kan, siap provoke lagi. Nih mmg nak cari gaduh ke ape,  I was trying to be patient kot. Alhamdulillah. xde pa per yang jadi. Seyesly, mujur that particular person wasn't someone close. Kalo x.. Xde la aku smpai nak pututs kawan, kan. Tapi stakat nih, all of my friends know yang psl isu jgn trash talk or provoke so, xde mkne la kn kitorang nak gado psl Bola.  Make sense la kan, if that particular person was someone close, dorang xkan buat bende tuh. Hello~~~putus kawan pasal bola? Hmmph. Finals plak, aku mcm nk tgk xnak tgk je. Alasan, esok keje. haha.

Kawan: Tengok x final nanti? Spain vs Italy?
Aku: ...hah? Ntah. Maybe. tapi maybe x..
Kawan: Asal plak?
Aku: Aku keje ar ari tuyh..maybe x tgk kot..
Kawan: Kalo Jerman yang masuk final, ko tgk x?
Aku: Of coz la.
kawan: Then..?
Aku: Tuh lain. *senyum

Tapi tengok je la sebab aku dulu suke je Spain, sebab La Liga. Kakak aku plak, memang suke la Iker, tapi, die memang sekadar suke. And that someone, suke la tu sebab Torres pn ade shoot. Huhu.

How Torres trains.lol

I'm not fanatic, ok, but when it came to national team, xkire Malaysia punye team or 'die NM', aku memang xleh say no. Seyes xfanatik. Aku layan je Bundesliga, Of coz ar big fan of FCB. "Mia san mia!". Still, not fanatic. lol.


Term:
die NM =  die Nationalmannschaft = the German National Football Team
EM = Euromeisterschaft = FIFA European Cup
WM =  Weltmeisterschaft = FIFA Worldcup

p/S: Please la jgn provoke saya^^. And one more thing. I'm just comment on what I feel. Kalo rse cam," hak ela pompuan nih, salah la...bukan mcm tuh sebenarny dorang men...". Back off, ok. That was MY OPINION. Thanks.